while yesterday evening was fun, now, 5 hours after the event has ended, i'm feeling a little lonely. is this because my roommate is sleeping or because there is no music turned on?

as i observe the world around me i seem to notice a particular pattern that is forming around me. when i make a rough graph of this pattern i realize that it is linear, and not exponential as i had feared. however, given the circumstances, i can't say i am completely relaxed either.

the graph being linear shows that soon, the pattern would continue. whether reality would comply with the given pattern is anyone's guess but i personally predict that the event will come to be.

natural disasters happen all the time and knowing when and where it will happen helps a lot. this is a similar case. given that if this event does occur eventually, i hope that i am mentally prepared for it. however, it is my great fear now that i have not seen any clues around me as of yet, and this worries me.

there is a part of me that hopes very hard that my prediction would be wrong. and these events are merely going on a random scale. i can only hope that the pattern that was graphed would turn out to be a mistake, that there wasn't a pattern to begin with.

perhaps this is wishful thinking but i hope that the graph would go up and down irrationally and not linearly anymore.